He did it. I can't believe it but he finally did it. My son, on the first try, passed the exam for his driver's permit. He didn't miss any on the sign test and just a few on the exam. I'm proud but now he's going to expect to drive everyday. I hate to tell him that driving is a priviledge that is earned. It is not an entitlement. Although, we could use another driver as busy as our schedules are.
But do you know what is amazing? He studied for the driver's exam and I mean studied. He really wants to drive. Isn't it amazing how much our kids put into a task, when it benefits them?
I just wish he would embrace homework that way. At fifteen, he can't see the value or the benefit of homework or studying hard. Being a smart kid, he feels that if he does enough to get by, that should be sufficient. Well, I think I already wrote about Mommy's School. Well, school commences this Thursday. We are spending the afternoon in the library preparing for the PSAT. He doesn't feel like it is needed. "Isn't it a test that sees how much I know?" "It doesn't matter about that test. I don't need it." All lame excuses for not wanting to take studying seriously. (I've got a lot of work to do!)
With the death of their sister, I have been lenient to the point that I have not challenged their intellect. I don't know... both boys are very intelligent. They have done well. But I didn't push the homework like I should. Both boys are honor roll students so I didn't feel like they needed the challenge. I felt that they needed time to adjust, recover and deal with the loss. (Let's be honest, I needed to deal with the loss and grieve myself. ) So I didn't push it. Well, it has been nearly 21 months since Britt's death and my boys are getting older. If I don't start training them now, it is going to be very difficult to do it in the future. (And no, it is not too late for my fifteen year old. Difficult, maybe. Too late, never.)
My fifteen old now looks at me like I am crazy because now I am starting to push those buttons. I expect him to deliver. It is very challenging but I know the value of taking school seriously. He will go far if he does well. It is my responsiblity to make sure that he does everything he needs to do, to be prepared and focused. So I'm ready for the challenge. And he will be too.
But would someone PLEASE pray for me?! Homework now includes driving practice.
Why Big Shoes?
Because each day God requires us to walk in obedience, no matter how hard or long the journey. We need to walk in those shoes with boldness, confidence and courage. Everyone needs spiritual "Big Shoes" that will take them to new levels of spiritual impartation and revelation. I've learned, the hardest thing is we need the strength to put them on each day. And that takes faith. Who wants to walk in "Big Shoes" when you have been hurt or betrayed? Who has the courage to walk in "Big Shoes" when fear has your spirit gripped so tight you refuse to trust God to take you through your darkest days? The amazing thing is when you put on those "Big Shoes", the struggle doesn't seem so hard. God and His Holy Spirit carries you through the toughest journeys - even when you think you are walking alone. As you walk, the heaviness of the struggle doesn't seem to weigh you down as much. You force yourself to take one step at a time, pressing, pushing your way through every obstacle that rises up against you.
There is no need to try to do it all yourself when God is there to lead you to still waters and those luscious green pastures. No, walking in Big Shoes, simply means you have the courage to shout out to God, "I can't do this without you". Before you know it, you are at the place He wants you to be, encouraged, empowered, enabled to move forward in faith, confidence and trust.
There is no need to try to do it all yourself when God is there to lead you to still waters and those luscious green pastures. No, walking in Big Shoes, simply means you have the courage to shout out to God, "I can't do this without you". Before you know it, you are at the place He wants you to be, encouraged, empowered, enabled to move forward in faith, confidence and trust.
